Unconditional love

I was thinking about unconditional love for quite long. Who can fall in this category??? I thought first about god and then parents... and then I thought who could be close to me who could have unconditional love.. I thought of RD and then friends..

God indeed has unconditional love for us. He takes care of us and never gets angry on us. If we don’t remember God, he’ll still be there showering his blessings on us, taking care of us.

In the same way our parents. No matter how bad we are, at the end they are there for us. They will be there for us in the needful time and will never turn their back on us.

Friends... I really can’t say... there are hardly any friends who can have unconditional love for us, may be our true friends or our school friends with whom we have spent most of our childhood with will have unconditional love for us or else if we are bad to them, they will give shit to us and turn their back to us. I guess they don’t fall into this category of unconditional love. I was thinking how many people we love without expecting anything in return. One way traffic doesn’t work for me. Ya but may be my relation with god, my parents, some of my childhood friends, some true friends and RD.. I can love them unconditionally and vice versa. I asked RD,” will you still love me if I treat you badly, he said of course I’ll love you nothing can change my love for you. I was shocked. I was thinking how someone can still love me if I am bad to him and then I thought like parents and god he is already a part of me. No matter how bad I have he’ll accept me, he might get angry temporarily but at the end he’ll be there for me.

I thought about other friends who can hold same kinda love for me and for whom I can hold, I could hardly count it on my fingers.

It’s arduous to earn true friends, also arduous to earn respect but it takes only some seconds to lose it.

It is said we might need thousand reasons to love someone but only one reason is sufficient to hate the person.

When we hate someone for some time we forget all the good things that had taken place in past. I friend of my told me, when you get angry with me think of the good times we spent together... I seriously couldn’t get good things in my brain when I got angry with him. When you are happy everything around looks good and dazzling, but when you sad everything looks ominous and dark.

General Stuff

Many behaviors around me irritates me, but sooner or later I share them wit mom. Best part is she hears though she doesn't react much. But m happy she hears and if it’s in her hand she’ll help me. One behavior tat pisses me off is waiting for the food on table while other are eating, not waiting for others to finish and already leaving when you done, Ah.. May be I don't like it cuz tat didn't use to happen when I used to live in Bangalore. At times I see my sister caring for dad so much. If he doesn't wanna eat also she’ll ask him thrice, can't compare. Dad is dad. But where do I fit it? Yeah she loves him cuz He's dad and he has earn tat respect. What about my feeling. She never sits and asks me wat i'm thinking... Or if I don't reply to anything she does not ask what made me not reply to her.. It’s weird out here. I’m still not able to adjust in my own family (may be cause I was staying without my family for a long time, 6 yrs. Mom is only one wit whom I don't have prob.. Or else..

I've tried enough but things aren't working fine.. A day might be happy all talking and sharing.. But in the price of followed up three sad days.. No talks no hear..

If I get angry wit someone I've this nature tat I don't talk to the person. If its a minor things its forgotten by the end of day but if its something which really hurts me.. his or her presence makes me uncomfortable. I don't even feel like hearing his or her name. But when it goes too much I wait, I see if I actually mean something to the person, how far my love one can stay away from me without talking, many Ppl bounce back realising their mistake.. And when people don't give up subsequent their ego .. I give up my wait.

My Wish List - 1

When the world was celebrating new year I hoped there will a new year in my life too.
When I see birds flying I hope my wings will be fine too.
When I have bad days I pray to god and hope he hears me too.
That guy says He is my shadow no matter wat I wish He's still there as he was, hope thats true.

I know all my dreams will come true and I am a kinda person, if I whole heartily want it I can make it happen. Sharing some of my temporary wishes.

All I can think which is gonna top the list is getting drenched in rain.
Cycling... (I miss my school days where I had to attend my coaching classes and had to cycle every day)
Go for a date with RD :)
Getting back to work, (I’m not sure if my family members will gimme a second chance but I’ve to try harder, nothing is impossible right?)
Party hard, dance dance and dance
Teach salsa to a friend who I m promised before my accident.
A bike ride with Sachin in Ulsoor lake.
Shopping
Watch a movie in theatre.
Checking out new restaurants in Bangalore
To attend a concert
Dress up -> Wear leggings and a long top (which I apparently can’t do it cause of the plaster in my leg)
Run behind Buddy and play chasing.
Buy a small aquarium (right now I can’t do this cause I only have to take care of it, cleaning will be difficult now)
Go to Coffee day
Meet all the friends out side


Well that’s all I can think right now., I’m sure there are lots.. Will cont some other time with my wish list 2.

On and off weights

My school fren met me three days back and told tat I have put on weight and was looking better.. For a change it was PUT ON or else every year when I come home I get to hear tat I'VE LOST so much weight. When I first went to hostel in class eleven, I didn't like the food.. But still I used to eat a lot. Three to four helpings, imagine.. And for each helping we had to queue. I'd gained 15 kgs and for the first time in my life people commented tat I was fat. It was nice to see my own hand grown fatter. It was like a dream to gain weight. Not much but 57 kg all together. For height of 5.3 I think its ok. I doubled tat time. For tat reason I hate to see my foreign trip pictures. I was so fat. Later I gave off chocolates, oily stuff, my every day dose of mug noodles which used to be heaven, rice at night and very less of potatoes. Guess wat happened I came back to normal 43 in a month.. Really it was a magic. After tat I tried really hard, though I slept and ate like pig I never put on weight. But since a week I get to hear I have put on and I look nice. My cheeks are in shape now. I loved my own pic tat I clicked wit dad recently :-)

Buddy and her best friend

She is Buddy, The Bitch.. dad calls her Gudiya, didi calls her nanu, Jaanu( at times) Baddu, I call her Baddu, Buddy, kalu, Budsi and any other stupid name depending on my mood :). Two words she understands perfectly One is her own name Buddy and another word is Billi(Cat), She hates cat.

He is Our neighbour's son. His name is Nanu and he is Buddy's Best frend!! A two year old kid

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I am so hungry.. Ate some fruits sometime back, I'm fasting as its Lord krishna's Birthday (Krishna Janmastmi). IT was fun to fast in hostel with other friends. We used to go to Iskon temple to break our fast. Last year I had taken half day from office as I wanted to go to temple around 11 at night. As per plan my friends would come to pick me up in bike and we would have gone to temple. Rohit, very own atheist also accompanied me. But it was tough to be away from food. As I was not habituated of fasting by mistake I ate sweet as a guy gave us cause his sister got engaged. I had the sweet and my supervisor, Shynu saw and told me that now I had eaten, my fast is broken and I don't need to take half day.. I thought of a idea and told him it was
by mistake and God forbids all the mistakes.. I got my half day off at the end of the day. My friends were waiting for me and we had nice time.
It wasn't fun today as there will be no celebration, no crowd in house. But I pray Lord inside and ask him to keep my love safe.

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Thoughts go in and out of my head. Same things get repeated in my thoughts. Some thoughts find peace once shared it wit someone or when written on a piece of paper. In the same way many of my thoughts found peace when I started blogging. It feels nice tat someone waits to read my mind.. It’s not tat I don't have friends to share but then when I meet a friend once in a while I won't want to share such stuff all of a sudden and make her blue too. She may not understand who knows or maybe I won't like her reacting instead of responding. Yeah Tat's wat happens when we talk face to face we react and when we reply through a written medium we get time to respond. Makes sense doesn't it? I was stuck for a long time when I read Sneha's talking about me.. Well of course not personally but wat eva she felt reading my post in blog.. the word “emotional”. I felt like going through all my post again.. Hell ya. She is right emotional. I wish I could have learnt to be cold too perhaps it helps in certain times.

Be right back

Hey sorry guys I won’t be adding up much value to the blogs as my net isn’t working well. I have limited connectivity right now for internet and I can’t use net for more than an hour a day. The unlimited connectivity of net that I was using before is not working any more cause of the flood in Nepal. Felt bad to read that 50,000 people lost their homes :(

Any way.. I’ll be saving your post and reading it offline (wont be able to comment much and update myself may be for a week). Will finish all the pending task once the net here works fine. Guess what is the net speed here 20kbps. It takes 2 mins to open my blog :( Banglore was so much better ... Any way I should be happy at least I’m able to manage. Something is better than nothing right?

BTW I liked this template but the prob. is m not able to add widgets which I had before like feed link traffic and recent comments stuff. I miss those widgets. It was fun to check out who visits my profile :)

I have to look a new template again.. sob sob!!

NIDHI MANGAL: Need a new look for my blog

NIDHI MANGAL: Need a new look for my blog

I guess this look is better wht say guys?? I still have to do so much editing. enough for today .. M so tired. Will go to sleep now. Bye good night.

Need a new look for my blog

Hey guys m too done with this theme. Now i need a change. Pls suggest me some. But stupid thing tht happens is after uploading a new template all the widgets get deleted :( i only want background to change. and the writing space here is too narrowed.. Pls help!!

She...

A very close of mine, Anu (name changed). A very fun loving girl who does not have any set of rules to live her life (unless she was married). She was like a free bird though she belonged to a little conservative family. Like other Indian, being the elder most daughter of the family she had to give away her freedom and get married right after college was over (so she got married in age 23 which I think is too early for girls). She is a brave girl. She adopts changes easily and takes life as it comes. She didn’t argue on the topic of marriage with her family cause she knew there is no choice left. Her grandparents were not well and father too was not sound in health. She also had to think of three more sisters after her.

Most the supplies needed for her marriage were ordered by her. It was like she was arranging her own marriage, being her own mother (as her mother had to take care of her ill father), who didn’t have any time left to dream about her future husband.

Like other gals Anu was excited about her marriage. She got married and after a month she told me she is pregnant. I thought she was just joking.. how would she knew she was pregnant in just one month and sure she isn’t duffer to think about the baby so soon.. . She was just a kid and her future will be ruined if she didn’t abort the kid. I asked her if she met a doctor regarding this issue and she replied saying that she did a self pregnancy test at home and knew she it was positive.

She told me that on first four days after marriage they didn’t use precaution, so might be during those days... I was angrier on her husband than on her. Female still doesn’t have much say, or let’s say they are shy and hesitant to talk such stuff when it is arrange marriage. Didn’t her husband have sense?? Of course, after all, the pain has to be gone through by Anu and not him. Imagine on her first anniversary of her marriage she will be with her kid in her arms. Apparently abortion was a choice giver to her by her in-laws, it’s any way risky.

She hasn’t gone for her honeymoon yet. All time her husband can afford to spend with her is at night. Her mother in law doesn’t keep a maid and she has to take care of all the household work, washing, cleaning everything. Thank god she gets two hours to rest in evening. I feel so bad for her. I wish I could do something to make her life better. All I can do is being with her when she is low, share her feelings. She tells me none of her friend is giving her time, all are changed. Well indeed people changes as their priority changes with change in time. I hate to see her profile name as “life sucks....”

P.s - Things I hate about it is the elder son or daughter always need to compromise, perhaps the younger siblings are the luckier one.

People know everything about safe sex but yet they are so foolish in their own case. For the enjoyment of some minutes they ruin their whole future.

I wish India and other country as well had restriction is number of births per family. I think two would be fine. There are still some family where a couple already have three daughters and still think of one more trail in want of a son.