Music and Soul

 

At times we set music according to our mood and at times music set our mood.

Its raining outside and I've nothing in my mind except love.

I wish he was here.

Switched on to radio listening to love song and dedicating them to him .

Something Something..

My house was in fire yesterday. I and my cousin Rusu were in kitchen while i was preparing tea. I saw a sudden flame near the cooking gas and it was coming from the cylinder pipe. Rusu started panicking. I couldn't think of anything better than run. I could have turn off the gas and cylinder but i blamed my speed cuz of my leg so we both ran through stairs. Nothing worked our mind except to go to ground floor and call the security guard. We could hear the sound of flame from first floor too. Later when we reached ground floor we realise the flame was visible from the kitchen window. Many people were starring at our building. Sudden rush and panic and some guys moved into our flat to extinguish the flame. Horrible part was that there were three cylinder near the gas.

Thank god i am safe.

Other Updates.

I feel so jobless these days. Its tough to enquire about Guitar classes :|

I’M planning to join CFA course (Charter Financial Analyst), not sure if i can manage, Giving a thought to it.

recently downloaded songs of Raju ban gaya gentleman and kabhi haan kabhi naa. (I am downloading Queen  :P )

Feel useless in life. Want to do something but i don’t know which area my interest lies.

Should i go for what market demands or should i pursue something in my interest (my interest might not pay me more than the market demand)

Calcutta is acting weird. Someday it rains heavily and other days its dry like desert.

Soap gossip >> Mile jab hum tum >> Do u think Mayank will propose Nupur???

I think Dil mil gaye sucks these days, hospital has nothing to do with them. Instead the English soap called Scrub is better.

Someone gift me F.R.I.E.N.D.S. ka DVD from season 1. I never watched it,

My concentrations is wandering in Universe these days. I cant sit and read newspaper for more than 5 mins. I cant study more than 20 mins. I cant sleep cuz if i sleep for more i feel guilty i am wasting time. I feel I don't belong here. I think i want to do something more occupying.

I hope find my self someday.. every day of life is precious and days are getting over which we turn back. I wish the sand of time were thick and never moved. I don’t know How to think less and how to control emotions.

BTW do share your Bachpan ki yaadein In my Joint-blog Shit-For-Tat

 

 

 

 

This and That

Trying to watch soap called Lost in Star World but i m not able to concentrate.

the net wire is not connected in my laptop as someone else needs it. Some blog pages are open and I am reading them one by one and drafting comment in my notepad. I think of books i think i have to study, i think of exercise – makes me realise  I missed my physio to say goodbye to Gaurav.

Watched a end of movie and felt i should have logged into the channel before, Christian wedding scene.. awwww so impressive --- reminds me i should have gone to Church on last time with my friend before he left the city. Suddenly I m craving to go to Church.

My one time best friend, Manali who is hardly in touch with me leaves something in FB made me feel I should not wait for her message. May be She is waiting for my message.

I see our wall to wall history – 4 msg from me and one from her …   Phew.. some ppl are so difficult to deal with when it comes to distance.  ( u guys are lucky cuz m most of the time easily reachable)

Had been missing old time spent in PG, Room party with Dim light.. Ooo how i miss yellow bulbs.. here arent any in this flat. Just white tube-light  :|

Manali and i used to go to temple and church quiet sometime. Church does some magic. Its peaceful. its understanding yourself and getting answer to the drooling questions and piling up more questions in mind before leaving….

I have to look for HTML courses and guitar classes – my Present longing.

I m lost i don’t know how to find out about them. Google didn't really help.

Today looks longer cuz my friend is gone and i have no one to go out with :(

I am home watching TV with 1/5 of my concentration.

thinking to play game with 1/5 of my interest.

want to go out with 2/5 enthusiasm.

feeling guilty of wasting time and not able to look for course i want. 3/5 – guilt feeling

Dhuuu the ratio is wrong.. there is just lots in my head and i feel lost. Missing home. :(

 

Saw the FB quizzi( how much do you know Nidhi Mangal i.e. Ur own Nidzzi) nothing above 46%

Feel like listening to “nothing else matters”

P.s. Soap Gossip  >>>  madsi was right. Sugna is pregnant in Balika Vadhu.

Mayank gives roses to Nupur in Mile Jab hum tum.. god i can’t keep my eyes off Mayank in MJHT.

PPS.  Still high on Love story, Taylor Swift

Long time didn't go for shopping, have to buy two jeans.

Feeling that i am growing fat – sitting, eating, sleeping and lying down    :|

two post in a day  :O  :O Better don't ignore my previous post. read and comment on that too :|

Pending stuff -- I have three Novels to read (rolling eyes)

Don’t feel like re – reading the post i know Peter will point out for grammar errors.. but its ok .. u know me..

 

See ya.. Love ya.. Miss ya,, muah…

 

Miss you already :(

My best friend Gaurav is leaving in sometime. He got a new Job and is placed in Guwahati (not sure abt spelling. i suck any ways in spellings)

Shit i am feeling so terrible. I know this was meant to happen. It’s just this three month that i had the longest stay with him in Calcutta. Before we used to meet once in a year but these three months had been best days of my life.

I will miss You so much Gaurav.

I made a farewell card for him which he read and almost cried. Today morning he sent cakes which says “will miss you guys” ( will put the picture if possible).

I cant imagine how will my tomorrow will be. I am so used to meeting and freaking out. every day a anew plan to do something different. Who will i share beer with???  :(

who will i go to Coffee shop with and who will gimme looks when i’ll kurta..

Here is something i have written for him in a card.

(Click the Pic to have better view)

word in the image

 

Words when expressed.. there are so much I want to write about you but you know when we sit down to write down the dictionary too falls short.

My dear friend.

I met for a first time in Calcutta when I was on way for my admission from Nepal to Bangalore. It was his birthday 30th April which slipped out of head many times. Shit I’m bad at dates.

The first time I met him I never knew I would speak to him again. But then it happened. He used to call up in my hostel and I’d his mobile no. and then the call session started. I used to write him letters but which he hardly replied. I just had got his one reply which was of 4 to 5 pages.

Near or far we became very good friends. In transition from Bangalore to Nepal I used to always meet him in Calcutta. So whole year we waited just for day, the day when we friends meet.

Today I'm here in Calcutta and because of him I've so much fun and this city is better place to live in.

“P.S. I'll miss all the places that we've been around. Esp Java, someplace else, thanks for the dinner in ITC, and the south city lane has its own charm. The trip to IIMC and your birthday blast. We showed me it was possible to freak out no matter how bad mood I was in and how difficult in was in my mind. We watched a movie in normal class. We went shopping and you caught my speed. We held hands and walked when I lost confidence. You made it possible to chill in nice weather. I just had to tell you what I want and it was all done, thanks to you my Angel. I feel so blue to imagine you won't be close to me anyone. You are my best friend and how will I move on without you.”

 

 

The shitters met and High on a song

Yo Finally I met Peter.. aree Peter my shitter buddy. It was Fun. IT was a first time that I met a blogger friend.

We went to coffee day and then Afraa. Mast tha. Thank god it wasnt  Mads nahi toh Peter would have to go through a interview round with rating on body language, clothes he wore and blah blah. I saved u from that Peter, say thanks. Badly wanna meet all u bloggers. i wish there was a shitfortat union face to face . Kya Dhoom hoti.

I had LOng Island Ice tea. My head hurt after I reached home.. dhuuuu..

P.S. Litchi season back again. I m glad i am not in blore (we dont find seasonal litchis there) I m in calcutta so enjoying it to the maximum..

Did u bloogie toggie hear the song of Taylor Swift – Love story??? its amazing \:D/ I M High on the song. It pepes me up.. (click on love story to download the song.)

There is one more motivational song by Swift called I m Only Me when i m with u.. Click the side widget to listen to this song .

 

Lyrics of Love song

We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.
I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you, "Please don't go..."
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.
Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, "Please don't go"
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes-
Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
Oh, Oh.
I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...
Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.
'cause we were both young when I first saw you

 

P.S. Rd my Romeo missing u ..

PPS there is a rolling stone concert happening in Calcutta at my fav hangout place called Someplace else, Park hotel. on 30th may.. i wanna attend but got no company :(  :(

 

A Friend to be..

I don't know if I did anything wrong. I don't know when and how it happened.

I thought she was turning into a friend. I liked being with her.

A soft spoken polite girl. The first time i met her i found her to be so beautiful. I was kid then. Now the road twisted her way and I met her once again.

She is different but helpful.

She is caring and enthu.

She sweats when she cooks,

she tries to study but she moves in fluke.

She is fast moving like a vampire,

she is concern sister and not a liar.

She speaks into a sweet melody like a song,

she dazzles, walks too much when she goes wrong.   

I make friends easily and at times i find myself tough to mingle with people. At times trying hard is not enough, we need to leave it and watch if it meant to happen.

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Next to me

When the clouds plays hide and seek,
when the moon stares and then passes slowly, 
I imagine you next to me.

When the cool breeze whispers,
when the leaves rustles, 
I feel you next to me.

when the emptiness fades,
when the closeness increases.
I know you here, next to me.

When the breathing gets faster,
when the heart beat goes up up up .
I know you are holding me.. (the goose bums says it all)

when you look into my eyes,
when you lock your fingers in mine.
When you say those magical words,
I believed, that you are always mine.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

P.s. I love you so much, difficult to express but I tried my best

I Limp so what???

She has the Bipasha Basu type haircut (what you don't know what I’m talking about? Perhaps you should check my previous post)

She has the most amazing smile, she is a bathroom singer but she sings with all her heart out.

She tries to me most fashionable ison.. See she got the freaky hair highlight. Next is purple or blue :-P

but she limps.. She carries her leg and she limps.

She had walk or her life (four hour walk with RD)

Spent most of her weekend dancing in disc. She never stayed home cuz she loved shopping, socialising, partying, rock concert, she even ran to catch auto but today she limps, she doesn't like it but she doesn't wanna stop it so she limps.

She Planned every week end - date or hill station with friends?

Watched movies and enjoyed bike rides wit all guy friends.

Got drunk, picked up by her boy friend.. She is every body's best friend. She went through the most difficult time, an accident followed by ten hours operation, and then many more.. She didn't loose hope, she had inner strength, and she had prayers of so many friends, parents and angels. She walks, doesn't go for movie but still thanks to downloading (piracy rocks), she has crowd phobia but still she shops, she gets over emotional, sentimental and cries till her headaches, missing old times but next day she recovers.. As if it was just a nightmare.

She doesn't loose hope. She limps so what? It’s just a limp . Isn’t it.

I am thankful God chose me among thousand cuz I am strong. There are people who can’t cope up with adversity. I m glad he chose me. What would have happened if it was some other family member. I’m thankful to him cuz he chose me but he healed me too (thanks to all those prayers and blessings)

I saw a man walking in crutch. I thanked God cuz I have passed that stage. That guy walking on crutch perhaps will stay like that forever. He didn’t have both leg. I m lucky I healed.

Glad…

No stretcher

No wheel chair

No Hospital for big operations

No ICU room

No scene of people suffering and crying in pain

No crutch

No lying long in bed

No sleeping straight till back hurts.

No saying No to shopping, movie..

No Plaster

No walker

But JUST A LIMP.

Some takes time to stand on their feet after staying in bed. Thanks everyone for motivating me and making me believe I can do it and I will do it.

Hope in coming diwali I can run after bursting the crackers.

In holi I can chase my friends and they can chase me too.

I can enforce my pending promises, teach Salsa to my friends.

And coming year I too dance with everyone and have that same smile back on my face.