105 days to go..

Suddenly I get butterflies. 105 days to go for my wedding. It sounds so near and when I think other ways it feels so far. Today morning when I visited my wedding link it showed 105 days to go for “THE DAY”. I smiled and felt I should hurry up with preparation. Not much time is left.

Last time for my sister’s wedding my dad had to write down names on card all by himself. It was a big and time consuming task so this time I have decided to give him helping hand by typing the addresses and getting it printed.

Finally shopping date is finalised. I will be going to Calcutta for shopping on 17^th of April with my parents and sis adding to it my in-laws, RD and his brother. I guess it will be fun to shop together.

Calcutta will be extremely hot. I just hope the weather remain pleasant during our visit.

This time pre wedding days won’t be fun as my elder sister is already married and my cousin sisters do not have holidays during that time. It’s not fun when kids are not around.

I and RD have been planning our HM. When I look into the website about the top honeymoon destination, all it speaks about is beach, island, and mountains. These are not place I wanna go, I neither wanna go visit a place full of museums and churches. I just want our trip to be less tiring and more relaxing. Meanwhile explore the city, not like those lazy couple who would spend most of the days of their trip in doors (yaar mein buddhi toh nahi hogi to think all this?)

Excitement begins. It is like Sensex going through peek and trough.

P.S. Please visit our wedding link and leave few words in guestbook.

Whats with Nidz??

Shifted to pg on 11th march and on the same day mom left for Nepal. I was worried about her as she never travelled alone. I was always with her. We both have travelled by air so many time cuz of our trip to B'lore for my surgery and other medical stuff.

For sure i didn't want to go back to Nepal as there is no physio therapy facility in my town. This time I choose to be back in B'lore cuz I’m planning to get back to work after I finish my exam on June 6th. Meanwhile I'll stay in a paying guest, do my physio, study for exam and meanwhile look for jobs and prepare myself for interviews. Now I see I got some plans. Some months back i was clueless when I was in Calcutta. Now I know what I've to do.
My pg is cool. It got late curfew line. Say like 11pm. It’s near to one of the best college in B'lore, so I always get to see good crowd. Not so bad food. I hardly can make out what sabji was for dinner. When south Indians make north Indian food, it has this south Indian flavour in it. Since Nav Ratra has begun I've turn veggie for nine days. I had to miss the egg curry yesterday :-(
My room mate is a punjabi first year student in arts from Jamshedpur and she has a BF who stays right opposite to our pg. So most of the time she is not in pg, she is out with her bf.
I've to travel 6km everyday to hospital for my physio. Doctors are kind of ok, let’s see whats more stored in.
Days just flies and during night I get busy killing bed bugs. Finally got my bed and mattress changed. Today instead of bugs I saw two tiny cockroaches on my wall. Killed them too... Katilana Nidz Lol.
Not following IPL instead I’m hooked up with FRIENDS and BOOKS.
B'lore doesn't have the same all rounder good weather these days. It’s freaking hot.
I miss Kolkata for its delicious food. Chai samosa, rolls, chats of vardan rd, Dinner n drinks with Rahul and Varun but nothing like ghee rice of Empire hotel in B’lore. I've to deal with cribby auto drivers everyday here. Sucks. Every place has its both good and bad thing stored. Its better i cherish the good side of it. I miss rd cuz of the places I've been with him here. I still have my college friends here to rock my life.
Some school friends are planning get together in Nepal during Dashera but I like to go home in Diwali let’s see.

So many things to say..

Finally i got songs of My name is Khan, Karthik calling karthik and Ishqiya On my Itune :D

I

I wonder why is it KartHik? Another Southie name?? Shouldn’t it be Kartik (rolling eyes)

Ok as for updates all of you must be already knowing that I had a surgery some days back. If not you should know about Dear Me. Click here for details.

Thank God I am discharged from the hospital. Karti bhi kya waha, No handsome Doctor, Not even Pretty Nurse to eye on :-w (Jumps, Ouch I forgot I am not suppose to Jump :P)

Hospital food was so bad that my mom preferred eating Lays and Goodday Biscuits for lunch .

One fine Morning the sister came to gimme sponge bath, I requested her to gimme head bath too as I can;t stand oily hair. She had great difficulty giving me head bath, still she should be thankful cause as a patient I was so corporative. So damn corporative that at the end she poured one cold mug water on my hair and I screamed at her.

I am good at it. Ask me to call a person to take his/her class .. You see How I do :P

I finally blocked Farmville from FB (yes yes I used to play that but I m saturated)

And Don Mangal (Mafia) is dead too .. She is now become a zoo keeper :P (another game in FB)

I tried playing scrabble in FB but got bored cause in two player the other player takes too much time to respond.

I like UNO :P

I tried learning Poker too but I think Flash is interesting. 

Good time pass for some1 wella like me.

I am glad Chriz Wrote about Red Undie again :P I love Red Undies :P

He’s on the house gyaan says, we should wash our Undie nahi toh Dogs will compel you to buy new one. Why to waste money in buying a new one, rather lets wash it on time and save money and party :P Ek beer to bantahai. Cheers.

I feel bad that I forgot my Spanish nootbook back in Nepal :( I could have resume my class other wise.

Since B’lore is warm as usual my mom has been telling everyone on phone when she has conversation to someone in Nepal or Calcutta or Siliguri “yaha toh thand ekdum nahi hai, ekdum acha hai mausam”.

Ah I think I should come to B’lore every winter as I hate Winters.

The doctor in Hospital said that he had 10 cases of road accidents of people going or coming back from Nandi hill every month. I was astonished and so was mom. People know it’s Risky to ride in hill station when it is so God damn foggy, but still they don’t listen.

My hands still pains Cause of Injection. Thank God I am on tablets now :)

The doctor was highly satisfied with my operation. I hope to get well soon and dance Tip Tap Toe.. We’ll Party okie ??

Read further about How to know if a guy is cheating On Shit-For-Tat

Mads completed her Hundred Post!!!! Congrates.. Posto Nahao . Posto Falo ::P

 

Back to Blog

Its amazing feeling to be back home. Bro was there to pick me up in the airport. We went to eat ice cream and pizza on the way back home. My dog, Buddy greeted me with lots of kisses and there my mom and sis were standing with smile and arms wide open. It was so so amazing to receive hugs, i badly was in need to it. My grand dad couldn't believe his eyes When he saw me. May be he didn't have a clue that i was coming. It was a sudden plan after all. I was feeling lost in Calcutta. I didn't have single close friend.

May be that's how life is. Not always perfect. Have to deal with all the phases and each phase teaches you something special. A reason to live life. A reason to struggle for something you don't know. Life is all about phases and phases is all about life. How to be bright when you low, how to handle excitement and surprises are the each levels of life. All the best with it.
I've come to conclusion how I can handle my mood when i am low. Here are some of my secrets to change my mood

1. talk to someone who is most of the time funny and whose talks makes You laugh. Positivity kills negativity right?
2. Listen to good music is loud volume for sometime so that you can't think of anything else not even your own thoughts .
3. Go out with bunch of friends and shop or eat or do something that makes you smile.
4. I love watching flights in sky. Its something that always bring smile on my face. So when 'm low you might find me looking at the sky to catch a glimpse of Aeroplane or if not, going for a drive to airport.
5. Read Cosmopolitan magazine.
6. Talk on phone with someone who won't make fun when you cry on phone. So if you have no way out let the being low phase out of your body crying for once and for all helps.
7. Watch a nice movie.
8. Drink, get high, yell and get over with it for once and for all. If you are not a yelling kinda person you can stay calm, composite and go to bed of coarse to sleep.

I have jotted down 8 points. Now its your turn to share some secrets. What do you do to change your mood when You are low?

P.S. I just reached Kolkata today. Got headache and feeling pathetic.

Something Something..

My house was in fire yesterday. I and my cousin Rusu were in kitchen while i was preparing tea. I saw a sudden flame near the cooking gas and it was coming from the cylinder pipe. Rusu started panicking. I couldn't think of anything better than run. I could have turn off the gas and cylinder but i blamed my speed cuz of my leg so we both ran through stairs. Nothing worked our mind except to go to ground floor and call the security guard. We could hear the sound of flame from first floor too. Later when we reached ground floor we realise the flame was visible from the kitchen window. Many people were starring at our building. Sudden rush and panic and some guys moved into our flat to extinguish the flame. Horrible part was that there were three cylinder near the gas.

Thank god i am safe.

Other Updates.

I feel so jobless these days. Its tough to enquire about Guitar classes :|

I’M planning to join CFA course (Charter Financial Analyst), not sure if i can manage, Giving a thought to it.

recently downloaded songs of Raju ban gaya gentleman and kabhi haan kabhi naa. (I am downloading Queen  :P )

Feel useless in life. Want to do something but i don’t know which area my interest lies.

Should i go for what market demands or should i pursue something in my interest (my interest might not pay me more than the market demand)

Calcutta is acting weird. Someday it rains heavily and other days its dry like desert.

Soap gossip >> Mile jab hum tum >> Do u think Mayank will propose Nupur???

I think Dil mil gaye sucks these days, hospital has nothing to do with them. Instead the English soap called Scrub is better.

Someone gift me F.R.I.E.N.D.S. ka DVD from season 1. I never watched it,

My concentrations is wandering in Universe these days. I cant sit and read newspaper for more than 5 mins. I cant study more than 20 mins. I cant sleep cuz if i sleep for more i feel guilty i am wasting time. I feel I don't belong here. I think i want to do something more occupying.

I hope find my self someday.. every day of life is precious and days are getting over which we turn back. I wish the sand of time were thick and never moved. I don’t know How to think less and how to control emotions.

BTW do share your Bachpan ki yaadein In my Joint-blog Shit-For-Tat

 

 

 

 

Miss you already :(

My best friend Gaurav is leaving in sometime. He got a new Job and is placed in Guwahati (not sure abt spelling. i suck any ways in spellings)

Shit i am feeling so terrible. I know this was meant to happen. It’s just this three month that i had the longest stay with him in Calcutta. Before we used to meet once in a year but these three months had been best days of my life.

I will miss You so much Gaurav.

I made a farewell card for him which he read and almost cried. Today morning he sent cakes which says “will miss you guys” ( will put the picture if possible).

I cant imagine how will my tomorrow will be. I am so used to meeting and freaking out. every day a anew plan to do something different. Who will i share beer with???  :(

who will i go to Coffee shop with and who will gimme looks when i’ll kurta..

Here is something i have written for him in a card.

(Click the Pic to have better view)

word in the image

 

Words when expressed.. there are so much I want to write about you but you know when we sit down to write down the dictionary too falls short.

My dear friend.

I met for a first time in Calcutta when I was on way for my admission from Nepal to Bangalore. It was his birthday 30th April which slipped out of head many times. Shit I’m bad at dates.

The first time I met him I never knew I would speak to him again. But then it happened. He used to call up in my hostel and I’d his mobile no. and then the call session started. I used to write him letters but which he hardly replied. I just had got his one reply which was of 4 to 5 pages.

Near or far we became very good friends. In transition from Bangalore to Nepal I used to always meet him in Calcutta. So whole year we waited just for day, the day when we friends meet.

Today I'm here in Calcutta and because of him I've so much fun and this city is better place to live in.

“P.S. I'll miss all the places that we've been around. Esp Java, someplace else, thanks for the dinner in ITC, and the south city lane has its own charm. The trip to IIMC and your birthday blast. We showed me it was possible to freak out no matter how bad mood I was in and how difficult in was in my mind. We watched a movie in normal class. We went shopping and you caught my speed. We held hands and walked when I lost confidence. You made it possible to chill in nice weather. I just had to tell you what I want and it was all done, thanks to you my Angel. I feel so blue to imagine you won't be close to me anyone. You are my best friend and how will I move on without you.”

 

 

The shitters met and High on a song

Yo Finally I met Peter.. aree Peter my shitter buddy. It was Fun. IT was a first time that I met a blogger friend.

We went to coffee day and then Afraa. Mast tha. Thank god it wasnt  Mads nahi toh Peter would have to go through a interview round with rating on body language, clothes he wore and blah blah. I saved u from that Peter, say thanks. Badly wanna meet all u bloggers. i wish there was a shitfortat union face to face . Kya Dhoom hoti.

I had LOng Island Ice tea. My head hurt after I reached home.. dhuuuu..

P.S. Litchi season back again. I m glad i am not in blore (we dont find seasonal litchis there) I m in calcutta so enjoying it to the maximum..

Did u bloogie toggie hear the song of Taylor Swift – Love story??? its amazing \:D/ I M High on the song. It pepes me up.. (click on love story to download the song.)

There is one more motivational song by Swift called I m Only Me when i m with u.. Click the side widget to listen to this song .

 

Lyrics of Love song

We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.
I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you, "Please don't go..."
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.
Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, "Please don't go"
And I said...
Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes-
Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
Oh, Oh.
I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...
Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.
'cause we were both young when I first saw you

 

P.S. Rd my Romeo missing u ..

PPS there is a rolling stone concert happening in Calcutta at my fav hangout place called Someplace else, Park hotel. on 30th may.. i wanna attend but got no company :(  :(

 

Scribbles

I went to Siliguri for shopping.

I Got a new hair cut!!! Ekdum Bipasha Basu mafik.. what you havent checked her hairstyle in filmfair mag. Dude its mind blowing Mahiya type!!!

Got my hair coloured too. Red and Blond this time and Its seriously awww---sum---ly  Hep.

Abhi I cant post a pic cuz i haven’t clicked any, Plus I forgot to get my data cable.

Finally meri Calcutta ki vapasi ki date teh hogai hai. Subh Muhurat nikal gai. Bhadai ho!!!  (finally decided which date I should be leaving for Calcutta)

I will be going back on 25th by train again this time.

My bro isn’t well. so he will be going to Chennai for Check up, bichara sukhke patjhad hogaya hai.  On the way he will drop down, and drop me down too of course to Calcutta.

some people are so easy to handle and some are so tough.

I was talking to mom that at times I am scared with Bhaiya cuz many times i don't understand what he talk. he talks in low volume which sounds to me like murmuring. Mom too laughed about it. I was surprised. She said she too had gone through this phase lot of time with Bhaiya and when I ask Bhaiya to repeat what he said two three times he gets annoyed and screams at me!!! Short temper I say!!

****  Yesterday I cooked pasta again. Like always me and buddy enjoyed it to the core. Thanks to Sun feast pasta cuz of which white sauce isn't that tough to make.

Hey Mads, Peter and Multimenon are having exams. so all the bloggie togie friend of Menon, Mads and Peter please do wish them all the best  esp to mads so that she not only get passing marks but attempt a record to pass with awesome marks!!! I trust you peter, U will do well. Naak rakhloge.

For the first time I don’t feel like leaving home. May be cause Calcutta is so NOT MY KINDA PLACE.I agree there are awesome place to hang out in Calcutta. Addition to this is the night life but people are conservative. I heard south Calcutta isn’t sucked with conservative people.

It’s difficult for rich people to adjust when are struck with financial problem and live a life of lower middle class. But it wont be difficult for lower middle class family to live a life when they upgrade to upper class (talking in financial/living standard terms)

In the same way its difficult for a person to live in conservative environment when that person had spend his/her life in freedom.. I am facing the same problem. Seven years I had stayed away from home, made my own decision, came back home when ever I wanted, went out when ever I wanted. It is different when I m back to Nepal. I understand parents care and there are some set of discipline and rules to be followed, meant for our own good. Family have all the right to interferer. but I don't dispatch these right to anyone else outside my circle.

I love my privacy. I guess all of us do. We allow only our close friends to invade in our privacy that too if our friends understand the limit. I hate people who try to come close to me without even knowing me. Meet once or twice and asks

can I have your phone number??? Bull shit!!!

Can we go out for coffee????   Hello!!!!!

She checked my bad !!!! What the fuck!!

She stares at my phone when someone calls and checks who is calling…. mind your own business you *****

Asks me where I m Coming from   :-/  Do I need to answer that ??? when even my parents never asked me such questions.

Chatted once or twice and adds me up in facebook/orkut/blah blah!!! hello find others way to  flaunt your Number of Friends in these social sites.

I don't intend to hurt any one and I m not aiming any one in particular. This is just the way I am. It’s better to understand someone rather than pretending to be a step mom/dad.. oh such a sweet child. baby from today I will be your mother/father.Ii will love you like your own mother/father. And next day she/he turns into devil and breaks all the toys and even Barbie… awwwwww

 

P.s. Don't forget to wish Mads and Peter and Menon for exams… all the best guys..

 

 

Back to where I was

Before :

Except that I will be going back to Nepal for a week (leaving on 13th April ). Finally I have gather courage to travel by train. All I have is crowd phobia. I hope god gives me strength to overcome this. Missing buddy so much. I m sure going back to home for a week after 3 months will be a nice change. And its just for a week so all set for VIP treat :d

Might not be online much as load shedding in Nepal sucks. Only 8 hrs of electricity in 24 hrs. Thank god, my home town wont be as sweaty as Calcutta.

Does any one know why is it called sweat- shirt/ sweat pant???

After :

In Nepal. Since I m here I’ve been planning which day should I return back to Calcutta. Should i travel back by train. This time i did. It was wonderful experience. It’s not that I have never travelled by train but just that I travelled after long time by train. Yes i did carry my laptop. Its my jaan, cant imagine myself without it. Kis ko Jaan kahu ?? KIs kis ko jaan na kahu.

My laptop, my cell phone.. and RD the great.

Watched a movie called “Taken “ at night when every one in train was/were busy snoring. Nice fast moving movie based on girl’s trafficking.

The day I reached my hometown it rained and since then it had been raining almost everyday. Love the before rain (cloudy weather) it makes the ambience so chill and romantic.

It’s sad when it rains in Calcutta, sala waha ka toh humidity hi khatam nahi hota (its always humid out there). it not even chilly weather after or before rain.

I had to stay two days at my mashi’s place cuz of strike.  :( Nepal sucks more day by day. Electricity prob, low speed net, strikes, blah blah.. but wo jaisa hai mera hai ;) the weather, people, Nepalese Music, the rap (mayo o maya), my school and the 16 yrs in Nepal haven't let the love die for Nepal.

As buddy saw me entering the house, she ran to welcome me, in excitement she peed :|   I am so happy that she didn't forget me. My old dog Goldie died :P who was in love with Buddy :x

Yesterday i saw a dream that I lost my favourite pair of jeans.. Shit!!  i almost cried.

I don't know what's with Chronic Writer .. he loves writing about Undies :P recently he is talking about red undies in his blog.. :O that too some one gifted him.. and that too red ones.. heights!!! 

Mads, peter, accilet, Harshi --- miss u guys so much

My GPRS is also acting weird. most of the time no network. Not been able to come online only. :(

It’s nice to back home. Home food, My old friends, My room, my wardrobe, even my slippers, awww how i love them.

Congrates to gaurav the bouquet guy) who was so tensed regarding his placement. he got placed in Indian Oil. I am so happy for him. But sad that he wont be in Calcutta :(

I have named Ayush KKCP which is kutta, kamina, C = ?? P= Phattu

 

 

                                                                             Happy Bday Mads

 

 

Yaar shaadi karni padegi.. bahat hochuka..

 

Thank god I’m in Nepal. I can call him everyday and talk on Phone. It good to listen to his voice when i go to sleep and first thing to think of him when i wake up. Love does amazing things.. ab bas.. Aur Intejar nahi hota..

Ab photo ko ghuro mat, Najar lag jayegi .. kala Tikka lagado. (dont stare at the photo, Shy will come :P) 

 

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Thanks giving and Relationships

My Bday is over :( :(

Chu se aaya Chu se chala bhi gaya!!

My day was good. Got so many phone calls and sms wishes. Gaurav and Pankaj as usual sent me cakes and bouquets. I would like to thank all the bloggers who wished me through comments on my blog and as well as different blogs. Special thanks to Shitfortat (Peter, Mads, Abhinav, Bhaw), Riversoul (sid), dear Harshita, Sam and Nikhil Menon.

I have been going for my physio every day. The guy who is treating me is a handsome looking Kashmiri guy, Harun. There is another Physiotherapist who is hot too. I think he is Assami but not crush type.. :P

Not bad. I didn’t know Calcutta would be rocking. I had gone to Aqua Java for paan flavoured Hukka with Rahul and Hemant. It was fun. Had gone for coffee with some friends to Costa Coffee at night :)

I haven’t explored Calcutta so much yet I had this thing in my mind that I would never like this place. In fact it’s not bad!

Finally mann ki murad puri hui. I had pasta. Only thing in list now is sizzler.

Mom is planning to leave Calcutta this Sunday. She is dying to go back home(Nepal). I will be staying here with my cousin.

It’s been so long I’m staying with my family. After my accident, my mom had always been with me. Mostly when I had to go to Bangalore for treatment we stayed together. Now I am so used to her that I didn’t realise how will it be when she wont be here. Yesterday when mom asked me to make her flight ticket I thought its good in one way, I will have the same life like before, the discipline free life, more of independence and more of freedom in everything. But the thoughts of me being without her haunted me. She made things so comfortable. I didn’t even had to get up to keep my plates, she used to do it for me so that i don’t have to walk so much.

Mother and daughter relations are different in all the family. Yes the basic ingredience might be same but the comfort zone in the relations is different. I have seen RD talking to his mom and its so different from what my mom and I share. I can even ask my mom to keep quite. He can’t do that. My be the respect is shown more through language and action with him but in my case its there in heart but we are more of friends.

Frankness becomes habit and at times I forget when I cross line with mom and suddenly I see it in her face that she felt bad. I apologise and then things get back to normal. Though we are free with expression I consciously think at times so that I don't hurt her, after all she is elder to me and she is my mother. Ultimately parents will there for us always.

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