Step by Step

Step by step

I will walk in ease

Step by step

I will dance in glee.

The day will come

when I turn back no more

The joy will come

and I will be sad no more.

The angels have been watching,

the dance floor have been waiting.

Here I come with new destiny

Step by Step

I will run to reach the check post

Step by step

And then Tip Tap Toe :)

Desire

When you have tears in your eyes
And you can’t cry..
When you have clear thoughts
But your mind still fights

When your heart is so heavy
And you have so much to share
When friends are many
But no shoulder to bare

When it’s a full moon night
And you still stare at stars
When the eyes are shut tight
And yet tears start to depart

Look within your soul
You’ll find the answer
That it’s not the world you fight
But your heart’s desire.

Spread your wings of passion
And to the heavens soar,
When you find what you seek
You shall cry no more.

 

Thanks Shaunak for helping me to end this poem. At times we start with something and we see no end to it. Thank God we have friends to make road of life interesting :)

Why shouldn't we care??

How it feels when suddenly you release that a part of your body does not move. You sleep sound and when you wake up you comprehend that you are not able to wake up.

It is scary. I pray to God none of us have to go through this.

Accident does weird stuff. In want to reach the destination by some minutes faster, we lose what it more important. Like good life, party, music, dance, friends’ etc; speed too has become our obsession. I feel speed reduces our decision making capacity. All we are concern is the destination. We forget that we have read in so many blogs and fwd messages that most of the time it’s not your fault. It can be somebody else’s fault. If you are driving in right lane carefully and in mean time some other vehicle comes and bangs your vehicle what can you do?

Accident is always unplanned. A shock, a blackout, to some it can be a moment to recall the torture throughout life. One more addition of new Phobia of Speed or Road or traffic.

I read Shaunak’s Post, brought back the pack of something that I have nightmare every night. One more sufferer added to the list.
Friends please pray for his recovery. Through my experience I know the greatest cure is through prayers and blessings.

Shaunak says :
My cousin's been in the ICU for the past eight days or so. MAJOR car accident. A truck rammed his car from the side. I don't remember the specifics, but multiple fractures, temporary coma, brain damage...it's bad.
When you know someone who's battling for his life, it kinda puts things into perspective. We weren't that close. Heck, we barely met. But I know the guy. He's family. And that's more than enough for his condition to be stuck in my head. He's finally started responding, but they say it's touch and go. No guarantees.

Please Pray.
To link with Shaunak’s Post click here

To be in love

I wasn’t sure if he could make it on Vday to be with me. Every time he makes plan something or the other comes up and plans goes in “hold” mode. But this time it was destiny. Two love birds can’t be away from each other for long. He reached B'lore on 13th night.

Vday hasn’t been relatively an important day for us. May be it is important for someone who wants to propose or someone who is new to love. For someone who is already in love, every day is Vday. You don’t need a reason to express love. You don’t need “this day – that day” to show how much that person means to you. First year of relation is always exciting when you get to know so much about the person, no money problem (everything gets arranged somehow or the other) friends are there to help with needy things. Actually people around us get more excited about this new relation. As relation goes through more time span, problems and long distances it gets more matured, more understanding and that moment comes when you become inseparable (one soul).

He asked me, “What do you like in me?” I replied, “There is no one who can understand me better than you, you are extra caring, you can’t see tears in my eyes, you accept me the way I am, you can tolerate me, my anger and you forgive me for all my mistakes, you the other part of me”. He asked another question “what If I stop being like that, will you leave me?” I answered “of course not because now you are not just a person in my life you become part of me and no matter how the other part is I have to deal with .My better half indeed.”

It was amazing to spend time together. Three days he was at my place, three days I saw him first thing when I woke up. I can’t tell you, it feels so amazing to lie down on his lap and when he keeps playing with my hair, recalling past moments, trying to get naughty but mom was there so I had to be in control but he was just irresistible.

He is in same train traveling back home and he says he misses me cause we once have been together in same train traveling together.

He brought me a beautiful necklace and a pair of ear rings. I didn’t know what to get for him. I somehow managed to get his bunch of roses. To be in love feels so great. It’s the most amazing thing.

Changing the sides of soul

If changing the sides of soul was so easy.

“Today I am dark and tomorrow I will be bright. For someone I am good and for someone I am really bad. For some time I am new me and ok for some time I can be old me.”

How can people change themselves so much now and then? It’s so difficult to cope with such changes. Some time I tell my brain, it’s time to switch off or else Nidz you will go mad, it’s no use to ponder over such things. But look at this stupid girl her heart is still Pondering.

Drunk with thoughts again...

:(

I don't why Suddenly I am so scare.

Mom and bro are gone to look Pg for me. Since I am alone in flat, I have bad feelings. I felt equally scared when I sit for exam or hope to pass in job interview. I don't know why I am scared. Is it becuz I have to live my again alone with out my family?

I dont know why I just cried

Is it cuz my best friend didn't speak me to through out the day and it made me realise how would my life with out him. For sometime I felt my life is so vacant.

Is it because I am listening to a romantic song and missing RD and he is so not reachable.

or was it because two of my best friends are now going around. It just happened two days back and I am so happy for them. I missed my times of butterflies and now life is changed so much.

My lap top speakers too are screwed up. I don't know what went wrong. It sounds like fata huwa dhol.

Happy Birthday to me

Kal tak itni excitment nahi thi.. Per aaj hai ;) Thanks to Shitters for those funny Tweets and the rocking post.
Facebook is always fun and I am glad my buddies remember to wish me cuz of Facebook Birthday alarms. So a great thanks to Facebook and everyone who wished me. Your wishes are one which makes impossible possible :)

I got up late today morning, nothing new about it. Bad thing was I saw 20 Missed called :( which means I missed around 15 Wishes and my gift too. The delivery boy couldnt not locate the address and he delivered to wrong house and left it seems :|
I have to track him now.

Nothing Special planned for today. I have Physio at 4. have called some friends on Friday for Sleep over.

Bro got wine and cake for last night B'day celebration. I didnt know about the wine, so as usual I had my milk on time and later realised that the Port-wine was waiting to be sipped :|
Koi nahi aaj pilenge ya fir kal with friends.

Birthday cake Posing with Mon n Bro :)


Thanks every one for making my Birthday so special <3