Finally ..

 

It’s been 8 years but butterflies in my stomach still exist. I still die to hear him say the golden words "I love you". The talks are getting longer every night. With each passing day the wait seems to be longer. It feels like time has stopped and even kicking the hands of clock won’t help.
We are getting engaged on 23rd November.
It will be a small function but a big step in our lives, two family union. I am so excited. In between RD had come to meet me. My mom introduces him to my Grand-Dad saying “ye aapka chota jawai hai” (this is your younger son-in-law). Grand Dad started with his small interview session and RD was patiently replying all the questions darted on him. Mom teased RD with best wishes for interview
After he left Grand Dad was so pleased to inform my Dad that he really liked RD. He said I am lucky to have such a handsome and good man and family. All is going good and I am dying to meet him again. He is been so busy these days but we end up talking most of the nights.
On the other hand my elder sister (Shweta Di) is getting married on 9th Dec. Dance practises are going on for Di’s wedding. RD and I are planning to perform a duet dance.
I left B’lore and now back home. It feels really great. I am enjoying yummy home food and feeling of being in family feels great with new add-on this time. Diwali was awesome. I was busy with Diya decoration. This time departing from B’lore wasn’t that excruciating because I was so excited for my sister’s wedding. Anil Sawan came to drop me in airport early morning. It was really sweet of him to come to airport directly from work.
Life is at its full fledge

What’s in my head is what I write

 

Dont feel like studying, dont feel like exercising the Spanish course. I don’t know what to do. I am just bored. Cutting down from internet, cutting down from online chatting. I feel I should spend some time being with myself. Some angers in me, some frustration doesn't seem to go. I guess I should wait till 11th March, change in place and people with make a difference.

Mom is counting days on her finger tips, she is so badly longing to go back home. 11th March and then she flies back home. This time she has to travel alone cuz every time I was there to accompany her. Adding to that its a break journey, she has to change her flight in Kolkata though its of same airline, Spice Jet. She has already lost the habit of travelling by train.

Finally I am going to wear All star shoes. I was planning to buy it yesterday, but cuz of my bad Holi-state I couldn’t go shop. All star have always been a “must have” on my list. Specially Nepalese  are crazy about Converse.

In college time it used to be the most comfortable things to wear cuz colour of shoes doesn't need to match up with what you are wearing. Of course you cant wear All Star on Kurtas, or with girlish tops but with jeans and normal Ts its the perfect wear.

I am back to my feet. I have started walking though the foot drop hasn't gone. I have to work really hard, which means exercise a lot  :-| how much I hate doing that.

Two months past in B’lore and I did nothing. I could have done  things but it didn't work but. I always like doing something productive, like I utilised ideal time learning something like dance, (I had join Salsa with RD before) doing some event and promotion work to earn extra bucks for pocket money and later went shopping and partied hard.

Can’t wait to go shopping. Some days back I tried my cousin’s sexy clothes (those were so MY kinda clothes). When i showed it to mom, she was like “ye bhi koi kapde  hai .. chii “ haha she doesn't like halter tops and short tops. So I have decided not to go shopping with mom but will go with my cousin.

Mom is carving so much to go for My name is khan. I know it is not a great watch but I am left with no option. My sister went to watch KCK and she hated the movie. She said, it’s not any thing new. many English movies are based on KCK. I didn’t know KCK is a thriller movie but i still want to watch it once for Farhan.

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So many things to say..

Finally i got songs of My name is Khan, Karthik calling karthik and Ishqiya On my Itune :D

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I wonder why is it KartHik? Another Southie name?? Shouldn’t it be Kartik (rolling eyes)

Ok as for updates all of you must be already knowing that I had a surgery some days back. If not you should know about Dear Me. Click here for details.

Thank God I am discharged from the hospital. Karti bhi kya waha, No handsome Doctor, Not even Pretty Nurse to eye on :-w (Jumps, Ouch I forgot I am not suppose to Jump :P)

Hospital food was so bad that my mom preferred eating Lays and Goodday Biscuits for lunch .

One fine Morning the sister came to gimme sponge bath, I requested her to gimme head bath too as I can;t stand oily hair. She had great difficulty giving me head bath, still she should be thankful cause as a patient I was so corporative. So damn corporative that at the end she poured one cold mug water on my hair and I screamed at her.

I am good at it. Ask me to call a person to take his/her class .. You see How I do :P

I finally blocked Farmville from FB (yes yes I used to play that but I m saturated)

And Don Mangal (Mafia) is dead too .. She is now become a zoo keeper :P (another game in FB)

I tried playing scrabble in FB but got bored cause in two player the other player takes too much time to respond.

I like UNO :P

I tried learning Poker too but I think Flash is interesting. 

Good time pass for some1 wella like me.

I am glad Chriz Wrote about Red Undie again :P I love Red Undies :P

He’s on the house gyaan says, we should wash our Undie nahi toh Dogs will compel you to buy new one. Why to waste money in buying a new one, rather lets wash it on time and save money and party :P Ek beer to bantahai. Cheers.

I feel bad that I forgot my Spanish nootbook back in Nepal :( I could have resume my class other wise.

Since B’lore is warm as usual my mom has been telling everyone on phone when she has conversation to someone in Nepal or Calcutta or Siliguri “yaha toh thand ekdum nahi hai, ekdum acha hai mausam”.

Ah I think I should come to B’lore every winter as I hate Winters.

The doctor in Hospital said that he had 10 cases of road accidents of people going or coming back from Nandi hill every month. I was astonished and so was mom. People know it’s Risky to ride in hill station when it is so God damn foggy, but still they don’t listen.

My hands still pains Cause of Injection. Thank God I am on tablets now :)

The doctor was highly satisfied with my operation. I hope to get well soon and dance Tip Tap Toe.. We’ll Party okie ??

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Mads completed her Hundred Post!!!! Congrates.. Posto Nahao . Posto Falo ::P

 

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Its amazing feeling to be back home. Bro was there to pick me up in the airport. We went to eat ice cream and pizza on the way back home. My dog, Buddy greeted me with lots of kisses and there my mom and sis were standing with smile and arms wide open. It was so so amazing to receive hugs, i badly was in need to it. My grand dad couldn't believe his eyes When he saw me. May be he didn't have a clue that i was coming. It was a sudden plan after all. I was feeling lost in Calcutta. I didn't have single close friend.

May be that's how life is. Not always perfect. Have to deal with all the phases and each phase teaches you something special. A reason to live life. A reason to struggle for something you don't know. Life is all about phases and phases is all about life. How to be bright when you low, how to handle excitement and surprises are the each levels of life. All the best with it.
I've come to conclusion how I can handle my mood when i am low. Here are some of my secrets to change my mood

1. talk to someone who is most of the time funny and whose talks makes You laugh. Positivity kills negativity right?
2. Listen to good music is loud volume for sometime so that you can't think of anything else not even your own thoughts .
3. Go out with bunch of friends and shop or eat or do something that makes you smile.
4. I love watching flights in sky. Its something that always bring smile on my face. So when 'm low you might find me looking at the sky to catch a glimpse of Aeroplane or if not, going for a drive to airport.
5. Read Cosmopolitan magazine.
6. Talk on phone with someone who won't make fun when you cry on phone. So if you have no way out let the being low phase out of your body crying for once and for all helps.
7. Watch a nice movie.
8. Drink, get high, yell and get over with it for once and for all. If you are not a yelling kinda person you can stay calm, composite and go to bed of coarse to sleep.

I have jotted down 8 points. Now its your turn to share some secrets. What do you do to change your mood when You are low?

P.S. I just reached Kolkata today. Got headache and feeling pathetic.

Scribbles

I went to Siliguri for shopping.

I Got a new hair cut!!! Ekdum Bipasha Basu mafik.. what you havent checked her hairstyle in filmfair mag. Dude its mind blowing Mahiya type!!!

Got my hair coloured too. Red and Blond this time and Its seriously awww---sum---ly  Hep.

Abhi I cant post a pic cuz i haven’t clicked any, Plus I forgot to get my data cable.

Finally meri Calcutta ki vapasi ki date teh hogai hai. Subh Muhurat nikal gai. Bhadai ho!!!  (finally decided which date I should be leaving for Calcutta)

I will be going back on 25th by train again this time.

My bro isn’t well. so he will be going to Chennai for Check up, bichara sukhke patjhad hogaya hai.  On the way he will drop down, and drop me down too of course to Calcutta.

some people are so easy to handle and some are so tough.

I was talking to mom that at times I am scared with Bhaiya cuz many times i don't understand what he talk. he talks in low volume which sounds to me like murmuring. Mom too laughed about it. I was surprised. She said she too had gone through this phase lot of time with Bhaiya and when I ask Bhaiya to repeat what he said two three times he gets annoyed and screams at me!!! Short temper I say!!

****  Yesterday I cooked pasta again. Like always me and buddy enjoyed it to the core. Thanks to Sun feast pasta cuz of which white sauce isn't that tough to make.

Hey Mads, Peter and Multimenon are having exams. so all the bloggie togie friend of Menon, Mads and Peter please do wish them all the best  esp to mads so that she not only get passing marks but attempt a record to pass with awesome marks!!! I trust you peter, U will do well. Naak rakhloge.

For the first time I don’t feel like leaving home. May be cause Calcutta is so NOT MY KINDA PLACE.I agree there are awesome place to hang out in Calcutta. Addition to this is the night life but people are conservative. I heard south Calcutta isn’t sucked with conservative people.

It’s difficult for rich people to adjust when are struck with financial problem and live a life of lower middle class. But it wont be difficult for lower middle class family to live a life when they upgrade to upper class (talking in financial/living standard terms)

In the same way its difficult for a person to live in conservative environment when that person had spend his/her life in freedom.. I am facing the same problem. Seven years I had stayed away from home, made my own decision, came back home when ever I wanted, went out when ever I wanted. It is different when I m back to Nepal. I understand parents care and there are some set of discipline and rules to be followed, meant for our own good. Family have all the right to interferer. but I don't dispatch these right to anyone else outside my circle.

I love my privacy. I guess all of us do. We allow only our close friends to invade in our privacy that too if our friends understand the limit. I hate people who try to come close to me without even knowing me. Meet once or twice and asks

can I have your phone number??? Bull shit!!!

Can we go out for coffee????   Hello!!!!!

She checked my bad !!!! What the fuck!!

She stares at my phone when someone calls and checks who is calling…. mind your own business you *****

Asks me where I m Coming from   :-/  Do I need to answer that ??? when even my parents never asked me such questions.

Chatted once or twice and adds me up in facebook/orkut/blah blah!!! hello find others way to  flaunt your Number of Friends in these social sites.

I don't intend to hurt any one and I m not aiming any one in particular. This is just the way I am. It’s better to understand someone rather than pretending to be a step mom/dad.. oh such a sweet child. baby from today I will be your mother/father.Ii will love you like your own mother/father. And next day she/he turns into devil and breaks all the toys and even Barbie… awwwwww

 

P.s. Don't forget to wish Mads and Peter and Menon for exams… all the best guys..

 

 

Back to where I was

Before :

Except that I will be going back to Nepal for a week (leaving on 13th April ). Finally I have gather courage to travel by train. All I have is crowd phobia. I hope god gives me strength to overcome this. Missing buddy so much. I m sure going back to home for a week after 3 months will be a nice change. And its just for a week so all set for VIP treat :d

Might not be online much as load shedding in Nepal sucks. Only 8 hrs of electricity in 24 hrs. Thank god, my home town wont be as sweaty as Calcutta.

Does any one know why is it called sweat- shirt/ sweat pant???

After :

In Nepal. Since I m here I’ve been planning which day should I return back to Calcutta. Should i travel back by train. This time i did. It was wonderful experience. It’s not that I have never travelled by train but just that I travelled after long time by train. Yes i did carry my laptop. Its my jaan, cant imagine myself without it. Kis ko Jaan kahu ?? KIs kis ko jaan na kahu.

My laptop, my cell phone.. and RD the great.

Watched a movie called “Taken “ at night when every one in train was/were busy snoring. Nice fast moving movie based on girl’s trafficking.

The day I reached my hometown it rained and since then it had been raining almost everyday. Love the before rain (cloudy weather) it makes the ambience so chill and romantic.

It’s sad when it rains in Calcutta, sala waha ka toh humidity hi khatam nahi hota (its always humid out there). it not even chilly weather after or before rain.

I had to stay two days at my mashi’s place cuz of strike.  :( Nepal sucks more day by day. Electricity prob, low speed net, strikes, blah blah.. but wo jaisa hai mera hai ;) the weather, people, Nepalese Music, the rap (mayo o maya), my school and the 16 yrs in Nepal haven't let the love die for Nepal.

As buddy saw me entering the house, she ran to welcome me, in excitement she peed :|   I am so happy that she didn't forget me. My old dog Goldie died :P who was in love with Buddy :x

Yesterday i saw a dream that I lost my favourite pair of jeans.. Shit!!  i almost cried.

I don't know what's with Chronic Writer .. he loves writing about Undies :P recently he is talking about red undies in his blog.. :O that too some one gifted him.. and that too red ones.. heights!!! 

Mads, peter, accilet, Harshi --- miss u guys so much

My GPRS is also acting weird. most of the time no network. Not been able to come online only. :(

It’s nice to back home. Home food, My old friends, My room, my wardrobe, even my slippers, awww how i love them.

Congrates to gaurav the bouquet guy) who was so tensed regarding his placement. he got placed in Indian Oil. I am so happy for him. But sad that he wont be in Calcutta :(

I have named Ayush KKCP which is kutta, kamina, C = ?? P= Phattu

 

 

                                                                             Happy Bday Mads

 

 

Yaar shaadi karni padegi.. bahat hochuka..

 

Thank god I’m in Nepal. I can call him everyday and talk on Phone. It good to listen to his voice when i go to sleep and first thing to think of him when i wake up. Love does amazing things.. ab bas.. Aur Intejar nahi hota..

Ab photo ko ghuro mat, Najar lag jayegi .. kala Tikka lagado. (dont stare at the photo, Shy will come :P) 

 

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