This and That

Once again I'm in a phase where I trusted people and they turned me down. I gave out my hand for friendship with smile and they stabbed me and left me with tears. I wish I could be as cold as those chilly nights, I at times wish I would be able to change my colours. i.e. be indifferent when needed, be tearless when I might be I position to shatter anytime. Being with people and not talking to them is more difficult than being alone. I find peace when I’m alone. I wasn't like this until I meet people whose presence disturbs me.

Thanks to “No Reservation” movie which helped me divert my mind for two hours. It took me to different world.

Thank to that company who discovered ready to eat food or else I would have died to hunger last night.

Bad phase comes at once in a row, one after another at times. My family is going through bad times and so I’m. Plz pray things would be different tomorrow. I don't like my lonely teary side. I like when I smile at silly Sardar joke. I like it when a hip hop song plays and all I droll over that song and sing to it and dance. Dance.. I miss dancing. But I never give up dancing in my thoughts.

Badly wanna watch movie called Newyork. Badly wanna hug mom when I wake up in morning or after a nap in afternoon. I miss Manali, Sonal, Sonika for that reason. They know how I used to hug them after I woke up when hardly could open my eyes. They are my pg friends. Sonal's chubby buddy always felt so nice to embrace. Sonika she is perfume freak. I loved hugging her cuz she always smell gorgeous.. And I kept asking now which perfume did your bf gift you. And Manali ... She is darling.

I'm still looking for guitar classes in Calcutta . I know I've not been trying so hard. But it case you guys have any contacts or any friend in cal Plz ask them to enquire for me.

I read newspaper in cab these days while going for physio and today I asked for newspaper to my cousin and she said its outside. I picked it up and started reading until I realised it’s of Thursday. :-( x( dhuuuu