When it rains..

Lazy eyes turned my side to the left, where I generally keep my phone next to my pillow. Check the time; it was 7’o clock in the morning. I smiled to myself as I had one more hour to sleep before I kick-start the day. Snoozed my phone thrice and finally got up at 8’o clock. Had nice shower, played my everyday playlist of songs on the phone. The best way to start a day for me is listening to music while I am brushing my teeth and while bathing. I got dressed and came out of room to dry my towel in the terrace. It was raining, I smiled. I wondered how the glimpse of rain still enchant me and bring back old memories when I used to spend hours watching rain through my window with a smile on my lips.

New friendship -Yes/No??

A time comes when I feel like -ok enough !! I don’t wanna make any more new friends. I have enough friends whom I am not able to give time.  I do not want to make anyone close and make them fall in my inner circle of friends. No emotional attachment no hurts no bad feelings, no worries to lose them (if in case).

Everyone goes through the new friendship excitement, the long chats, the feeling to check their status on whatsapp/Fb now and then, the feeling to meet them time and again.

Does it really happen with everyone? Time when you feel like you have enough of friends around you and you are not open to new friendship which might turn into close friendship later?

A song I came across

                                                                  "Ordinary People"

Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday


I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow


This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss then we make up on the way

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow



Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave, 
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I



We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

When the emotions are running high!!

There are moments when you feel so shattered, when you are not able to understand why you are low. You try hard to hit the right cord, to make people understand what you are going through and what the reasons for your sadness are. Actually you yourself don’t know.

And then when you take a step to talk randomly to that someone, things that you never thought poked you, which has stayed passively in corner of your mind/heart comes out as an emotional opening up.

Things that you had stored deep within, which even you were not conversing about, takes shape in form of words and open up to that someone who is patiently listening to you without commenting anything but just letting you talk, open up till you are done with it. Till the tears dry, till the heart beats comes to the normal beating, till the time you feel you are done and now you can sleep with a wish of new fresh morning.

If you were a sailboat...

First thanks to the writer of anymorethenawhisper to introduce me this song. I am loving it. Thanks once again <3<3
If you were a cowboy I would trail youIf you were a piece of wood I’d nail you to the floorIf you were a sailboat I would sail you to the shore
If you were a river I would swim youIf you were a house I would live in you all my daysIf you were a preacher I’d begin to change my ways
Sometimes I believe in fateBut the chances we createAlways seem to ring more trueYou took a chance on loving meI took a chance on loving you
If I was in jail I know you’d spring meIf I was a telephone you’d ring me all day longIf I was in pain I know you’d sing me soothing songs
Sometimes I believe in fateBut the chances we createAlways seem to ring more trueYou took a chance on loving meI took a chance on loving you
If I was hungry you would feed meIf I was in darkness you would lead me to the lightIf I was a book I know you’d read me every night
If you were a cowboy I would trail youIf you were a piece of wood I’d nail you to the floorIf you were sailboat I would sail you to the shoreIf you were sailboat I would sail you to the shore
KATIE MELUA - IF YOU WERE A SAILBOAT

Getting back to blog and little bit of being filmy

As I came back home, I rushed to search my laptop and reminded myself where I last saw it. Oh yes, it was in my work station.

The laptop was left untouched, with all the work related screens on and all the messengers on. I decided I need to get back to writing blog and to do that I had to shut down everything so that there is no distraction and the flow of my thoughts are not disturbed.

I had traveled to a nearby city and came back. It was a short travel but a long conversation with me in my head.  The unsaid words to the missed one, I said it all in my thoughts and made some terms with myself, pondered over it again and again. On the way I might have read fifteen blogs which I had saved it to read later on my kindle.

Series of topics came to me which I wanted to write down and I wondered how much I missed writing blog and why had I left it so untouched when there are so many topics I wanted to write about.

As I was travelling back in car, I felt RD head on my shoulder (generally he is not much of a sleeping person in car), I wanted to relish this moment so I kept him continue resting on my shoulder. I kept looking at him, wrapped his hands with mine and wanted to tell him how much I missed him (though he had been with me throughout) and how much he meant to me. Filmy that I am, as a matter of fact there is difference in real and reel life (your phrase I keep stealing.. sorry can’t help it), I felt pain slowing increasing in my shoulder. I wanted to place his heavy head somewhere else to  easy myself and reminded myself that I could not be so filmy to hold him like that for too long, I am a girl not a boy with masculine arms :P.  The pain became intolerable so I finally placed his head to the other side near the car’s door. I smiled to notice that we are not too away from home.

Lots more to write. To be continued..

The new follow up :)

What if you took a left turn instead of a right turn would your life be any different?. Perhaps yes, every microscopic change can alter our future...but there are things that are meant to be...right?. Or its us that make them happen? Or may be there is a greater force that control us? Do you believe in destiny ? This is my diary, where I explore and battle with my own soul! All started with a dream...... Hope my life journey can help someone to understand the importance of dialogue and to grasp every moment in life .... Don't do the same mistakes I did.. Live the moment ...be yourself.....follow your instinct... Everyday that we get is a bonus don't waste it ...




Thanks dear blogger for motivating once more to write.

http://anymorethenawhisper.blogspot.com/2013/06/feet-in-sand.html

Being on same page

Travelling in my car and thousands of thought rustle my mind. There were times when I used to share all my single thoughts with him. The time phase when were learning about each other, I felt he totally understood me and we were always on same page. He heard me exactly how I spoke. There were hardly any disagreement or thoughts of conflict.
Suddenly the time came when I had to choose between left and right and when I chose left he would say "where is left? There is only right", when my explanation to my feelings and thoughts changed into uncommon page. I felt when i was level five of emotion, he was in level three and he could not be in same level to understand my emotions and feelings I was going through.
It's then I realised there are things and feelings which other don't see  and feel the exact way you do. You have to let go, shouldn't push too hard. Be yourself, believe in yourself and be happy for your own self no matter if no one sees the exact you which you really are.

Soniye Hiriye Teri Yaad Aandi Ye

Relishing the song..

Soniye Hiriye Teri Yaad Aandi Ye
Seene Vich Tadapta Hai Dil Jaan Jaandi Ye.

Tuhi Jind Meri Ye Dil Da Karaar Ni..
Tuhi Jind Meri Ye Dil Da Karaar

Tu Aaja Tenu Rabda Wasta..
Udekta Main Tera Rasta

Kinna Tenu Chaava Ey Na Samjhi Tu..
Tere Naam Kitti Zindagii,

Jab Tu Milengi Tenu Dassange
Tere Naal Meri Har Khusi

Tuhi Jind Meri Ye Dil Da Karaar Ni..
Tuhi Jind Meri Ye Dil Da Karaar

Tu Aaja Tenu Rabda Wasta..
Udekta Main Tera Rasta

Soniye Hiriye Teri Yaad Aandi Ye
Seene Vich Tadapta Hai Dil Jaan Jaandi Ye

Suna Suna Dil Da Aasiyaana Hai
Suni Zameen Ho Asmaa..

Khoya Khoya Renda Mera Paagal Dil
Aaja Laut Ke Hun Aa Bhi Jaa

Tuhi Jind Meri Ye Dil Da Karaar Ni..
Tuhi Jind Meri Ye Dil Da Karaar

Tu Aaja Tenu Rabda Wasta..
Udekta Main Tera Rasta

Soniye Hiriye Teri Yaad Aandi Ye
Seene Vich Tadapta Hai Dil Jaan Jaandi Ye

P.S. I have been following this singer Shraddha Sharma in youtube. She is a good singer, sings differently but I hate to watch her. Probably she needs to work on her expressions more. I swap my screen if my mistake i see her video :P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJe6GcFDuBU

Reading through Kindle

Now days I cannot collect patience to read blog on my laptop. I though don’t mind to read it on my kindle.  It’s one of the oldest versions of kindle that I own but I still love it as I love my old letters, way back but yet so close.

As we have “Pocket”  as and read it later extension in Chrome, it also has an app called kindle it which converts all the read it later file to kindle format and like Pocket it send the file in one click to my kindle. So awesome and so easy to read it there. Especially when I am lying down and want to want to drift apart from world, not read about the same old people on your FB list but to read some sensible post of dear bloggers.

Raaji I am trying to catch up with your post J

I thought blogvilla has died as many of my blogger friends have stopped blogging but it was amusing today to check that there are still some bloggers who updates their blog now and then.

Being apart from blog was when life was in full swing.  Especially when RD was around after marriage I never felt like writing as I used to share all my single thoughts with him. I still do. But I kind of feel the need of getting back to blog have been increasing. It may be because I want to be with myself and not matter with real people for some time but just me and my thoughts.